...Teacher's Aide that is.
I have now wrapped up my first week of being a
Teacher's
Assistant for Human Physiology taught by Dr. Matt Linton at the U. Let me tell you, it's quite the experience! Monday was my first day and I was completely horrified (
I won't mention the fact that all I had to do was stand up in front of everyone for 20 seconds to introduce myself...to my credit...it was a huge auditorium of 200 or so people). I just don't have the "guts" and confidence I used to, you know! But I got through that day. I then got through my first office hour that's held once a week.
Then came Friday...the biggie. I had to facilitate an hour long discussion in the above stated HUGE auditorium all by myself....and my laptop...OK and a humongous projector...in front of lots of people. Woo wee! Talk about a nerve-racking adrenaline rush. I think I did pretty good for the most part...I'm trying to not dwell on the many things that went wrong and just focus on the fact that I really did give them good information like my TA had done for me. Now I just need to get past the next 16 Fridays where I'll have to do this all over again (minus a few breaks).
I'm just glad this first week is over with and past me. I had so much anxiety this week! And it didn't help that I slept through the 3rd day of this class due to the fact I forgot to change my alarm to "AM" after getting home from work that morning...and the professor specifically asked that the TA's never miss class! Aaahhh! Since that day I can't sleep very well because I'm so panicked I'm going to miss the class again. Even this morning, being Saturday, James said I woke up at 6am in a panic that we had missed something (none of which I remember). I'm starting to relax a little now the worst is over. And it helped that the professor now calls me "Sleepy Head"...at least now I know he doesn't hate me.
It's been quite the eye-opening experience. Here's what I have learned so far:
- Teachers are awesome. Enough said. Their job is a lot harder than I imagined. -It's easy to take things very personal (like when people leave early, people have a look of complete boredom on their faces and if people are laughing..."are they laughing at me??!?!")
- Teachers pay attention to faces and names and it doesn't take much to get to know the students if the students put forth the effort.
- Teachers WANT people to come up to them and ask questions and e-mail them...anything! They want to be able to help the students in any way.
- I need to give more positive feedback to my teachers and TA's (i.e., "I learned a lot today", "thanks for the help", etc.) because I had the following thoughts running through my mind the whole time I was talking: they all think I'm dumb and want to leave, I'm going way too slow, now I'm going way too fast, do they all hate me?!?!?, are they learning anything?
- Continuing with that same thought, I told the students to e-mail me if they wanted the PowerPoint Presentation I went over in the discussion. Since then, I've received several e-mails and some of them say "Thank you so much for what you said today, it really helped." Oh man! That means the world to me. It helps me not feel so down on myself after the discussion...you just never know how you did, you know????
- It takes a lot longer to prepare for a "lecture" than I ever anticipated! I'm so glad that I was well prepared though. Being at the front of a HUGE room with lots of people does funny things to you!
- Teaching is actually very fulfilling. And they aren't kidding when they say the teacher learns more than the student.
This nursing goal I'm pursing is taking me on paths I never would have traveled on my own! I had no idea what I was getting into when I wrote my
"start of something good" post...OK, OK I knew it was going to be
involved, but didn't realize the full extent of it, ya know? In order to get into the U of U (quickly), you have to have a lot of leadership and volunteer experience. And even then less that 50% of applicants actually get in. This TA position counts as one of my leadership experiences. I'll write later about my volunteer stuff, too. I'm actually really excited for some of the things I'm involved with.
We're coming down to the wire now! Applications become available in November of THIS year!